What I wanna know is what is so important about these little teenage relationships that usually never add up to anything that would make it so one of the people would want to kill themselves when one of them ends...
And I dunno about suicide...
I don't have the best life in the world... I'm way behind in school and I have annoying relatives that ruin various family get-togethers by mentioning school every time (and that's all it takes for me to get depressed about it... we start talking about school I'm depresed)...
I have... 1 friend... and we usually only do things on weekends... and not every weekend or nutin...
So I pretty much sit up in my room by myself all day doing the same damn thing everyday and it's been going on for like 4 years now... although it was kind of fun for the first... half a year...
Sooooo basically almost all day I sit around wishing school would f*** off, wishing I had more friends, and wishing I had more to do...
My mom is usually in a bad mood or sleeping...
and my brother's just here to be annoying and leech off the family... (24 living at home with no job... immature... comes home smelling like crap all the time)... And calling me a loser and stuff like that... Yeah, look who's talking...
And I see the world differently than most people... At least I think I do... I just don't really talk about it much...
Anyways enough about me...
Basically y'know people say ooohhhh it's selfish ohhh this and that...
Or you could say... if you're so damn miserable that you'd wanna kill yourself... wouldn't it, in a way, be selfish of the OTHER people for wanting you to live through it? You want to kill yourself because you're miserable... and the other person doesn't want you to kill yourself because you make them happy or they like being around you or whatever else that makes them care about you... When it's your call... your life... if I was that damn miserable, I wouldn't care about what other people would feel when I was gone... I'm the one stuck in this world of misery, you'll eventually get over it... or at least mostly...
"there are people who love you... "
And therefore they wouldn't want you being so miserable...
And I know you can get "help"... but I even tried getting "Help" for my problems before because my parents forced me to, and it didn't work... So now I look at it as "Those people taking my parents money"... Which I don't like cuz I hear my parents talk about having to budget stuff and this and that... And now I don't feel like getting help anyways (and my problems aren't even as drastic as people who can't really think straight)... Drugs or Therapy... It's just shaping you into something you're not... are you not good enough for the world the way you are that you need to take drugs to fit in and all that?... Sad... I thought it was a GOOD thing to be yourself... oh but when yourself happens to be sad and miserable, that's all of a sudden not good... you need help... here, talk to this person, he will make you all better... anyways, that's a whole other issue... If I were in a situation like that, and I saw it like that, people saying I need "help" and stuff would just make me worse... That means, if I ever get really REALLY depressed... don't ever tell me I need "help"
But I'm talking about people with problems much deeper than having their petty lil' relationship end...
But this is one of those issues where a majority of the people say one thing... but I turn it around on them...
People: Don't be so selfish, think of the people who will miss you...
Me: How about you think of the person who's so depressed it's gotten to a point where he no longer wants to live?
People: There are people out there who love you...
Me: Yeah well that person you love is sitting there suffering... Try harder to help him because he obviously can't help themselves...
and I know I said "Help" is changing them to be something they're not blah blah well help from actual friends and family and people who are in your daily lives and have been in your daily lives is different from some stranger therapist guy...
But meh I dunno... I'd never kill myself so I don't know 100% how they feel... and I've never known anyone who tried to kill themself so I don't know how the people feel when they're effected by that...
Aaaaanyways...
*wonders who is even going to take the time to read this*... *realizes probably nobody will*... *shrugs* *hits "Submit Reply"*
Edit: Stu, you'll have to excuse Chris... He's the idiot here...
And it seems the replies to this message have like doubled since I started typing this up... I guess I should have typed and thought faster...