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Originally Posted by Combine 017
Is she going to birth herself?
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She can't be her own mother, that would just be silly.
Anyways, in the grand scheme of things other people probably wouldn't say I'm up to much because I'm not working and I'm not trying to find a wife or anything. But considering my dad's health is visibly declining month-to-month, I take care of the house as best I can, garden the veggies etc. It's actually fulfilling to spend time with my dad now, because now I actually
know him. Other than my glorious sports abilities and insatiable lust for knowledge, we never had much in common growing up, mixed in with teen angst we ended up wasting a good 15 years just having power struggles and arguing with eachother just for the sake of it, seemingly. But in the last few months I've come to realize that he actually
is a ridiculously nice, caring parent. I advise all of you to generally spend time with your fathers, like you would a buddy. Smoke a joint, have a beer, talk about life in general, tell some racist/sexist jokes, talk about naked ladies (To be fair I also do all of those with my mom, be friends with your moms, too). You never really realize how fast time moves until you look back and realize how old everyone around you has gotten. Call your parents, you ingrates - they want to get to know you as an adult. Let them.
Aside from that I spend most of my time watching discovery/history/geographic, learning various things via the interbucket, watching sports and exercising when I can.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I've sort of carved myself into this shitty little hole based on the type of humour I present (most of the time for my own amusement). I over-play stupid/weird, and I deadpan it, and stick with it like a bit that only I'm in on (Think Norm McDonald/Kaufman and Carlin for the arguing)- because the verbal or visual reactions people give to awkward or stupid remarks can be quiiiite hilarious - but this has caused some of (even my actual friends) to just assume I'm stupid and that the things I say magically have no basis or merit, which is infinitely frustrating to me. Maybe it's my fault for being in a situation where I'm so under-stimulated that I need to create a comedy routine in my head on the spot and then watch my friends struggle with the awkwardness that arises from it. Maybe it's my fault for thinking about entertaining myself above others in times of extreme boredom. However, I have a firm belief that one of the keys to comedy is silence. And it's very tough to give up awkward humor when you really enjoy watching people attempt to properly react some dumb comments/actions. So I have to figure a way to mesh my actual self, with the part of me that enjoys controlling awkward/annoying scenarios. Maybe I should just stop getting really bored. Maybe less, or more drugs is the answer. Less or more drugs usually is the answer, actually.
But now I'm just stoned.
So who am I.
My cousin's kids [age 9/7] (long story short, he lost custody) are living at my uncles down the road now, so im going to be chipping in to raise them as much/best I can. Even just the thought of helping those kids makes me happy. Plus they're 100% past the shitting and pissing themselves stage, and completely into the "help me with schoolwork/teach me how to play hockey" stage. Hopefully this will also help me out for when I have my own kids, I mean - I won't learn anything about the first 7 to 9 years of how to raise a child, but fuck it. They barely remember those years anyhow, right.
Plus this morning I just found out my dad's dad has under 3 months to live. So I guess I'll be up to that for a while. If one can be up for preparing for a-whole-lotta death.
Say hi to your mother for me.