[Teuthida]

Yeah sure. I was being very one sided.

Well I actually met her through him. At the time he was pining for her but she wasn't into him so they just remained friends. He has more female than male friends anyway. And I'm pretty sure this trip of theirs is platonic.

It mostly hit me hard because I have very very few friends and I was always ok with that thinking those I had were very close.

He had recently (well months and months because I broke up with mine) broken up with his own girlfriend and was pretty messed up over it. I talked with him about it for hours and hours hanging out with him and letting him sleep over so that he wouldn't be alone and do something stupid as he was wont to do.

I also tried to remind friends with my ex after we broke up but I just couldn't do it.

The two of them started seeing each other very frequently. Whenever I asked what they've been up to, they were always with each other. They both said they liked hanging out with each other for support coming off their relationships. Meanwhile I had no one to talk to. I felt a bit betrayed with all my time spent helping him get over his breakup while he just hung out with my ex.

And then they take this trip that I was suppose to go on that we've been talking about doing for years. It's like they both replaced me with each other.

I kind of wish he was just a dick and went on a CCS as you called it. It would be less pathetic for me. Was always content being a hermit but now I have the realization I'm really alone. And considering I'm no longer at school and freelance from home, no idea how to make new friends.




And if wanna go into why I'm so friendless besides being severely antisocial:

EDIT: And deleted. That got a little too personal for my liking. But it helped me work out how I got to where I am. Nothing ever good comes from transferring to art schools.