Ok I have my own weird thing going on right now, here it is:
2 weeks ago a girl of 19 and me discovered we liked eachother and we decided to give it a chance. We were unsure at first, but every time we've met, it's been great. I really love her and think it can/will work out. I might marry her one day.
The thing is.... I'm scared.
So incredibly afraid of something, of her, of us. I don't understand why, but it makes my stomach ache when I think too much about it. First I thought it was maybe because of my ex, but I don't think that's it. Then I thought maybe we're just not a good combination but that isn't true either, we're great together.
Did anyone ever have that? Being afraid of good things to come? Afraid of a relation?
I came up with the following possible reasons:
- I'm just not ready yet, it's going too fast.
- She's 4.5 years younger than me and 8 years younger than my ex, it's so different.
- She might break up for the same reason my ex did... (some kind of nasty past I've had that's hard to accept - she has the right to know, I want to tell her in 1.5 months).
Today we talked about it and decided to take it very slowly, we specified 'slowly' (only meet 1 or 2x a week etc.).
Any thoughts/advice?
(PS: a few months ago I really got over my ex... when she wouldn't answer my mail. I'm disapointed by her, her love wasn't deep enough. I'd like to think that we were such a good match that we didn't have to love eachother very much... which caused problems in the long run.)