[Typhoid]

I just wrote more.

Hooray.







Sometimes I wonder if life is important.
If that feeling in my stomach is love.
If three little words can really make it worth this.
Then I burp.

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Rocking.
Back and forth.
Waves splashing my face.
Seabreeze in my hair.
The smell of vomit.
God I love the sea.

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The sign says Jumbo Food Town.
But I know they're kidding themselves.
That corner store isnt much of a town.
And it barely sells food.
It just steals my quarters.
And smells like rice.

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If catchy hooks is all I have.
Empty words to snag your ears with.
I'd try to get your attention.
So you could be my deaf lover.

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She smiles at me.
So I wave at her.
I decide to walk over and strike up conversation.
Before I can talk.
I hear her say.
"You poor man, lets get you some clothes."

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If people with mental disabilities.
Are supposed to be treated normally.
As to not be forgotten about.
Why do we put them in special classes.
Instead of boxes marked "letters to Santa".

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I like to go smell the perfume samples.
Every Saturday.
I talk to the ladies that work there.
And smell vanilla.
God I miss you.

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My mother left last year.
She said she was getting bread.
She never came back.
She has always been a horrible liar.
We already had a loaf.

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I've always wondered why we plant people.
When they die.
Is it to hope they will grow again.
And sprout anew.
Like a tree.
Or a bush.
Or is it a metaphor for garbage.

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Dont make me choose.
Between something I need.
And something I want.
Because in the end.
It's always the flashy clown that buys out.

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I picked up a book the other day.
But I couldnt get passed the first page.
Memories started rushing back.
I was covered in a clammy sweat.
Maybe I should learn to read.

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The motel sign flickers.
Vacancy.
No vacancy.
I've always wondered.
Why motels are the dirtyest places.
Yet I get a room anyhow.
Am I that desperate for sex.
Probably.

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Fishing is a great escape.
From all the girls we ever loved.
Just two guys in a boat drinking beer.
Homoeroticism at its finest.

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I want to fly like the birds.
High above everyone else.
Laughing.
Singing.
Eating worms.
****ting on cars.

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I've never understood why people take drugs.
To fit in.
To be accepted by other people.
There has to be reasons.
More than wanting to chase leprochauns.

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The knife tells me to pick it up.
And thrust it into my chest.
Because of you.
Thank god you made me able.
To never take advice.

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Street signs tell us what to do.
Traffic lights tell us when to move.
Cars take us there.
If they all revolted.
We would be amish.
And have sore legs.

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I lay in the grass and think.
What if grass was blue.
Would we notice.
Would it look completely different.
Then someone yells.
"My god he's drowning."

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I dont care enough to learn things.
It doesnt make sense to me.
I'm going to die anyways.
Why waste someones time.
With something as pointless.
As learning CPR.

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Boxing with my cat is fun.
It gives me lots of excersize.
Enjoyment.
Laughing.
Plus I always win.

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Your blonde hair mezmerizes me.
It's what I love about you.
I've always wanted every girl to look like you.
But then that wouldnt make you special.
Please stop drooling.

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I've never shaved my head.
I always thought it would make different.
Not myself.
And someone else.
But I know.
I would just look like an idiot.

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Is age all that important.
Afterall.
It's just a number.
Then again.
So is a murder count.

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You give me your phone number.
I call you the next day.
To see how you are.
Funny.
I didnt know your name was Steve.

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Religion says being gay is a disease.
Homosexuality is a birth right.
Not a choice.
You chose to be religious.
Who's faking things now.

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Television are made up of little tiny squares.
And in those squares.
Are more squares.
And in those squares.
Are all my hopes and dreams.
Constantly changing.
Altering to the world around it.
Desperate Housewives is on.