[Ace195]

I don't know how to feel is what my girlfriend says as i say I love you and don't want to break up so the best thing in my life is going away and there is nothing I can do about it.. All I try is in vein... My head hurts my heart hurts and all I want to do is crawl into a hole and die.. And I thought things were going so well.. I just wanted a little house on a hill 4 kids and a nice life but now my dreams are fading into the dust..


Another guy is all my friend doug says and I don't know how to feel... All I want to do is cry.. And I feel tears rushing on. I wish to die to sleep for evermore. But I know that I must go on..... I don't know how to feel myself anymore.. She told me that I was holding her back from doing things she liked.. I was like just go I'm not trying to hold you back.... GOD ****ING KILL ME....... Yeah tears now god hates me today first my brakes then the only girl I care about................................................. It's tearing out my heart.. I don't want to be her memory I want to be the past present and future but I don't see that happening any time soon.... Typing not working now because I'm actually crying..


I don't cry........... I don't know what to do... I just want to go back to the way we were... WHY TODAY
WHY NOW ?
WHY EVER?


WHY DO YOU HATE ME GOD ?